Have you ever felt that things go wrong & you have absolutely no way of correcting them?
Have you ever felt that everybody is ruling over you continuously?
Have you ever felt that your privacy is getting destroyed & you can't do anything about it?
Have you felt that you are completely life-less & people are just taking a trip on you because, you are weaker & they happen to be a lot stronger?
Well, if you're answers to all the above questions are yes! Then, Hello friends!
Because, I am going through the exactly same phase of life. I am equally impatient, life-less , and sick! Not like ill sick. . But, sick of everything happening in my life!
I need a break, like a BIG break. A break from anything.
I wanna go alone to some place that I've never been to , sit in silence & learn more about life, me & what I really wanna do with my life.
I just don't seem to figure out anything in life. It is just too complicated.
For example, a few days back I came home sloshed & puked on my bed. My parents had a cultural shock. It's India, parents are still not open with the fact that their children drink. I mean, I'm not a drunkard or something. I just planned to be happy high but, it turned out to be something a lot more than that. I still deny it in front of them, but it happens. They know my reality. Which has actually screwed up my entire relationship with my father. *upset eyes*
Like, any other 18-year-old teenager, even I want space. space in life . I need to make my own decisions. Live my life the way I want to. I cannot learn from anybody Else's mistakes. This is my life. I have to make my own mistakes. But, who will make them understand this!
And, so goes with my love life. I know I am with the wrong guy. But, I also know that he will screw my happiness if I leave him. So, that is my decision to do it. Break it when I want to & patch up when I want to.
It's entirely my choice, that who has to be in my life & who doesn't. Nobody is here to govern me. This is me!
But, parents are probably the last people on the planet who understand us or at least attempt to understand us! They think that just because, they give birth to us, they own us! I mean of course, we owe our lives to them. But, does that give them the authority to take decisions for the rest of our lives? If, I want a BlackBerry then that is entirely my choice, I don't care if it gets obsolete in a little while. It's my choice to have it. But, my dad won't buy me one, because he disapproves of it! Why ? Why on earth am I supposed to go with it?
But that's how we are expected to be. I am so going to take up a part time job with my first year. I need money, to fulfill these external needs of mine which are being disapproved by my folks.
No, I won't preach of optimism today, I cannot. Because I am not living on it either.
I can give a whole lot of lecture on frustration if you guys are willing to hear it, Because,that is my current state of mind. Totally frustrated.
Hello, gloomy days! *sad face*
Right in later people.
Looking for people who can connect.
Take care. :)
Have you ever felt that everybody is ruling over you continuously?
Have you ever felt that your privacy is getting destroyed & you can't do anything about it?
Have you felt that you are completely life-less & people are just taking a trip on you because, you are weaker & they happen to be a lot stronger?
Well, if you're answers to all the above questions are yes! Then, Hello friends!
Because, I am going through the exactly same phase of life. I am equally impatient, life-less , and sick! Not like ill sick. . But, sick of everything happening in my life!
I need a break, like a BIG break. A break from anything.
I wanna go alone to some place that I've never been to , sit in silence & learn more about life, me & what I really wanna do with my life.
I just don't seem to figure out anything in life. It is just too complicated.
For example, a few days back I came home sloshed & puked on my bed. My parents had a cultural shock. It's India, parents are still not open with the fact that their children drink. I mean, I'm not a drunkard or something. I just planned to be happy high but, it turned out to be something a lot more than that. I still deny it in front of them, but it happens. They know my reality. Which has actually screwed up my entire relationship with my father. *upset eyes*
Like, any other 18-year-old teenager, even I want space. space in life . I need to make my own decisions. Live my life the way I want to. I cannot learn from anybody Else's mistakes. This is my life. I have to make my own mistakes. But, who will make them understand this!
And, so goes with my love life. I know I am with the wrong guy. But, I also know that he will screw my happiness if I leave him. So, that is my decision to do it. Break it when I want to & patch up when I want to.
It's entirely my choice, that who has to be in my life & who doesn't. Nobody is here to govern me. This is me!
But, parents are probably the last people on the planet who understand us or at least attempt to understand us! They think that just because, they give birth to us, they own us! I mean of course, we owe our lives to them. But, does that give them the authority to take decisions for the rest of our lives? If, I want a BlackBerry then that is entirely my choice, I don't care if it gets obsolete in a little while. It's my choice to have it. But, my dad won't buy me one, because he disapproves of it! Why ? Why on earth am I supposed to go with it?
But that's how we are expected to be. I am so going to take up a part time job with my first year. I need money, to fulfill these external needs of mine which are being disapproved by my folks.
No, I won't preach of optimism today, I cannot. Because I am not living on it either.
I can give a whole lot of lecture on frustration if you guys are willing to hear it, Because,that is my current state of mind. Totally frustrated.
Hello, gloomy days! *sad face*
Right in later people.
Looking for people who can connect.
Take care. :)
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